Let's talk about taking risks for a moment, shall we?
I am not much of a risk taker. Safety is usually a sure thing. I am not big on taking a gamble and suffering the loss.
Yesterday, the office with Good Cop/Bad Cop called and offered me the job. And instead of being happy and excited, I was devastated. I knew I didn't want to work there. The hours they were assigning me were going to make things at home very difficult. The energy level there was not the same. I just didn't feel it, you know? Do you ever have to feel it to make a decision?
So I told Good Cop I needed to discuss it with my husband and I would call her back in the morning. I didn't sleep much last night. I should have been happy. Thankful to be given this opportunity when there are so many people who would have gladly taken it. But I would be worried about my babies, wondering if they were happy with their arrangements. Worried about the extra load I would be putting on Uberman. Worried about the additional inconvenience to my awesome MIL and SIL who offered to help with the kids. Worried that no matter what I did it would not be good enough for Bad Cop.
This morning I turned the job down. I thanked Good Cop for her time and the opportunity. And I explained that I had to be honest with her. The hours were not going to work for my family. And thankfully, I am in a position where my family can be my priority. Uberman and I both felt a little sick. My good friend Marci told me I had a set of balls and she wished she had my courage. But unfortunately, a good set of balls isn't going to pay the electric and put food on the table. Well maybe for some people. But that's a blog for a different day.
Four hours later, the other office called. Fun office. Dream office. Paradise office. They offered me the job in their office. I start Monday.
I took a risk. It payed off. I am not sure I will be trying that again. I am pretty sure my luck expired with that decision. But who cares? I am so happy!!
Do you know how hard it is to update your blog while jumping up and down?